Behold the World's Worst Accident

I feel good, I feel happy, I feel free.

I might be joining the Little Caesar's retirement plan, which is working at the Mellow Mushroom. :)

I feel like Candide in that I am filtering my experiences through the philosophy that, "Everything is for the best." I hope it is...

My grades rock this semester. I am having a competition with this older guy in a few of my honors classes about grades, it's funny. I am listening to the Alan Parsons Project on vinyl and it is creeping me out. Well, I was supposed to be going to NY City with school but I decided that I want to go to Boston more, and my parents said that they would pay for my flight to one destination. So... this weekend, Halloween party. On Halloween I am going to Columbia to party with Carlen, which should be a lot of fun! Yeah, nothing much...

Just to let everyone know... I am making an important announcement.

I have totally changed my whole philosophy on life. 

End.

I have fall break and nothing to do. Maybe I will just catch up on my reading. Maybe I will go somewhere. Who knows? If you do know what I should do, you know the number.

Across the Universe was absolutely amazing. Jim Sturgess, who played Jude, was beautiful. If you haven't seen it already, then you must go see it. It is totally worth the money, so much so that I would pay to see it again.

Yesterday I went to Earshot... while smoking a cigarette at the storefront I realized that there is an upcoming show that I wish to attend. The fucking Melvins played at Ground Zero on October 9, areyoufuckingkiddingme?! Morrissey is playing at the fucking Peace Center on November 4, I am not missing this one! At Earshot, they have this drawing for tickets, everytime I go in there I am going to enter. I must go! On the up side, the weather makes me feel extremely beautiful and untouchable. Nothing can bring me down with the cold wind against my face. Fall and winter are my favorite seasons, if only my birthday was not in the spring.

When I was having a conversation with some people the other day, I realized that women are never "allowed" to dominate anything, not even a conversation.

Totally bought my halloween outfit, totally a pin-up girl (Bettie Page)! Didn't have International Politics today, got done with a Western Civ test that was easy as shit. I got to see Carlen last night, we hung out and finally ended up going to see a movie. I am going to Asheville on thursday, six flags on friday. Next weekend, going to Columbia.

"Frenchkiss" by Kid 606
"Idioteque" by Radiohead
"Like Spinning Plates" by Radiohead
"Time is Running Out" by Muse
"Off the Rails" by The Notwist
"Strotha Tynhe" by Aphex Twin
"Sex. Murder. Art." by Slayer
"My Own Summer" by Deftones
"Say It Ain't So" by Weezer
"The Persistance of Loss" by Nine Inch Nails

This is why my day was so awesome, because I didn't have to skip around on my shuffle for good songs to play. It's like the songs wanted to brighten things up! In addition to this, I finished my test early, ate some good Chinese food, and the sky is a beautiful azule with cotton ball clouds.

Oh, sweet distraction. Always with good intentions, never followed through. Always with something to say, usually needs to stay unspoken. Always with piercing eyes, never to look through you. I am still a little girl, even though you think I am wise. 

Fuck, I really just need to throw this computer out the fucking window.

Intellectually stimulating = brain orgasm 

I ususally like people based on what they represent...
then I find out who they really are. I wonder what it is that I represent?

I have been reflecting on what I want out of life....
- living somewhere awesome 
- being a fantastic english teacher
- writing so beautifully that it brings a tear to your eye
- find someone that truely suits me
- not having any fucking kids... not even around me
- still smoking pot and discussing intellectually stimulating things
- not having any worries :) 
- feeling like I am on top of the world

Do people normally think about these things on a day to day basis? Am I just being obsessive? 

Between you and me, I want to be someone else right now. I don't want to be a direct reflection of what I represent. I want to be a mystery. I want to be enchanting. I want you to want to know me. 

This is why I love life...

I am downtown alone right now and I feel extremely lonely and bored. I am supposed to be studying for an American History test that I have tomorrow, but I don't want to. I wish that someone called me or tried to contact me via email, facebook, etc. once in a while. Oh well...